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Redemption and Love
…will find you even if you´re not searching

FRIGGA: Loki.
LOKI: Hello mother. Have I made you proud?
FRIGGA: Please, don’t make this worse.
LOKI: Define worse?
ODIN: Enough! I will speak to the prisoner alone
Frigga leaves the throne room.
LOKI: (As he laughs) I really don’t see what all the fuss is about?
ODIN: Do you not truly feel the gravity of your crimes? Where ever you go there is war, ruin and death.
LOKI: I went down down to Midgard to rule the people of Earth as a benevolent God. Just like you.
ODIN: We are not Gods. We are born, we live, we die. Just as humans do.
LOKI: Give or take 5,000 years
ODIN: All this because Loki desired… a throne.
LOKI: It is my birthright!
ODIN: Your birthright … was to die! As a child. Cast out onto a frozen rock.
ODIN continues as Loki stares in disbelief: If I had not taken you in you would not be here now to hate me.
LOKI: If I’m for the axe then for Mercy’s sake, just swing it. It’s not that I don’t love our little talks it’s just… I don’t love them.
ODIN: Frigga is the only reason you’re still alive, and you’ll never see her again. You’ll spend the rest of your days in the dungeon.
LOKI: And what of Thor? You’ll make that witless oaf King while I rot in chains?
ODIN: Thor must strive to undo the damage you have done. He’ll bring order to the nine realms and then, yes … he will be King.
The guards walk him out of the throne room towards the dungeons but first they are going to frisk him.
No! He thinks, if any of them talks about it they will want answers I am not willing to give.
How to avoid it? I´m still in chains and they are not likely to take them off until I´m in my cell.
Dammit! If only they didn’t look so fresh …
He could feel his heart thumping faster as the distance to the dungeons reduced, maybe if I throw a tantrum they will believe it and let me keep my shirt on, they can frisk me all they want, but I will not let them undress me.Or if I raise enough of a hell they will not notice, although he doesn’t believe it.
He is so much into planning he misses Thor walking a few meters away from him, he´s probably on his way to double check Loki´s cell security, so when Loki starts raising his voice at the guards and making as much rattle about being a prince and not wanting to be undressed before them it only takes a heart beep for Thor to walk into the room.
-Hello brother! Come to see them humiliate me? Does this works for you? They already frisked me why can´t I have some dignity left?-
-After all you have done you think you still have some dignity? – An enraged Thor answers him as he tries to pull Loki´s shirt off.
Loki tries so desperately to keep him from getting a hold on him that his shirt tears apart which causes his older brother to gasp.
-Out! -He thunders to the guards –I want to speak to my brother alone-.
Everyone leaves leaving the two brothers alone.
-What!? – Loki snarls
-What do you mean by what?! Explain these- He shouts at him a mix of concern and anger.
-When you go missing for a year lots of things can happen to you! Things just happen. –Loki states calmly.
-Loki, stop that and tell me who did this to you and why-Thor insists
-Like you cared. Are you not going to lock me for good? Just do it and leave me alone. These does not concern you-
-Those are really fresh. I would say just a couple of days before you tried to conquer Midgard with the Teseract. Do not tell me is not my business. The last time we saw each other you said to me that you never wanted a throne and the next time I see you that is exactly what you are aiming for.I am not as smart as you but I would be a fool of I didn´t saw the connection.-
-Brother – Loki says his voice reflecting the trembling that had come upon him- Let it go, please! It serves no purpose. Just forget it, and take me to my cell where no harm can come.-
Thor hadn’t noticed the redness and moist that was threatening to pour out of Loki´s eyes. He felt pity for him, why would he feel this way after all that Loki had done? Why? But he did, he wasn´t going to leave the matter alone, but he could give Loki a respite.
-All right, for the moment I will leave it alone, I will call back the guards and you will cooperate with them.-
Not even Loki had realized he was holding his breath until he found the words – Thank you.-

A month had passed since the first time Thanos raped Loki, unfortunately for him he seemed to enjoy raping him too much, it made Loki withdraw even from Gamora. He had lost all hope of ever returning to Asgard, how could he, he was broken, he was unworthy.
He kept refusing to call Thanos father out of hate, he hated him so much for turning him into the creature he now despised.
One day as Thanos finished raping him, he just told him –I´m fed up with you, if you won´t be my son you will be my slave.-
Loki felt scared, what did he meant by that? How could that mean to be any worst that he was now?
Thanos relished on his scared look –Scared runt? You´d better be, you will lead my chitauri army to Earth and retrieve the Teseract for me. Your will be my own, you choose not to give me your loyalty; I will take your free will from you. But first I´ll give you a reminder of what will happen to you if you fail me.-
Loki could see Thanos taking out something out of a coffer offered to him by one of his soldiers; it was a whip but it looked somewhat different. When Thanos wielded it he understood why, it was magically covered with flames at his touch. Loki started shaking both in anger and fear; he was after all a frost giant, nothing better to torture a frost giant than fire.
He closed his eyes determined not to give Thanos the satisfaction of hearing him cry, but it was a resolve he understood wouldn’t be able to keep as the first stroke hit him, it didn´t just bite and tear as other whips it burned too.
A dark scorch mark appeared on his back, it only took two more slashes to make him scream, Thanos was venting all of his anger on him, he didn´t leave a spot untouched; he even had the soldiers turning him around so he could strike his chest.
After he was done he ordered the soldiers to unchain him, Loki felt to the floor unable to stand. He just curled up as he sobbed, he was pathetic, he felt disgusted by himself, you deserve it fot being week he mentally admonished himself.
-Father, should I treat his wounds? If you are going to send him to Earth he might need his strength to lead your army-Gamora asked Thanos.
-No-Thanos answered- That pathetic creature is no longer worthy of your attention. It will serve him as a reminder. Even with his will taken away he will fill the pain.-
Loki and Gamora’ s eyes meet one last time, his eyes were stripped of emotions, he finally had broken him Gamora compassionate look went unnoticed to everyone.
-Bring the runt his old clothes-Thanos ordered. Loki didn´t even move while the servants dressed him up in his asgardian armour.
Even with his armour he looked sickly, he was sweating probably from the pain the burns provoked, he looked pale, dark patches around his eyes. It looked like Thanos almost wished him to lose so he could keep torturing him even more.
When Thanos touched his chest with the staff a blue light emanate from it turning his naturally green eyes to blue ones.
-All right pet- Thanos said as he handed the staff to Loki- I´ll be keeping my eye on you, or mybe I should say my mind- Thanos evil laugh filled the room- If you succeed I might even reconsider your position, I might just let you rule Earth on my name.
Loki wished he could turn the staff against Thanos, but he couldn´t he was a puppet, nothing more.

Note: This story carries on in Redemption and Love.

Over ten months had lapsed since the first time Thanos tortured Loki, and he could tell the Titan was growing impatient at his negatives.
Tortures were becoming harsher, even life threatening, Loki couldn´t even remember life without pain any more, as soon as he was half mended another torture was inflicted upon him. He just wished they got carried away in one of them killing him in the process. He wasn´t going to break, he´d decided that from the start, he had brought enough shame to Asgard, he wasn´tgoing to shame himself anymore by becoming Thanos´ son. Thor wouldn´t give I if he were in his place, he couldn´t break Frigga´s heart that way.
He was being whipped again in the throne room, he didn´t even had the will to cry out anymore, he just took the lashes silently as his head hanged defeated when he suddenly heard Thanos approaching.
-Still your answer is no, son? – He asked as he lifted Loki´s face to meet his.
Loki didn´t even answered he just shook his head.
-Gamora, you seem to be doing a poor job tending to your brother, he´s too weak. I´m, afraid I´ll have to punish you also.-
Loki´s heart cringed in anticipation, what would he do to her? Would he whip her too? Don´t let him see you care Gamora’ s words echoed in his head.
-Maybe we should let your brother see what happens when you or your sister disobey me-Thanos said with an evil grin then shouted to the guards-Tie her to the post-
-Father, please. I will do a better job. It´s not necessary-Gamora pleaded
-Oh, but it is my gentle daughter, how else will I teach you obedience- then addes to the guards –Make sure they face each other-
Loki looked up as Gamora was tied to the same post he was, he could see the horror in her eyes, she couldn´t be so scared of a whipping, what was Thanos going to do? He didn´t had to wonder for long as Thanos ordered the guards to strip Gamora of her clothes as he stood behind her.
-Remember Gamora, it will only be worst if you resist. I must admit I´ve been thinking of punishing you for a long time now, maybe I should thank Loki for the opportunity – he grinned as he caressed her.
“No” Loki thought as he understood what he meant to do, he was going to rape her and he´ll make him watch.
Gamora looked up at him; her eyes pleading him not do anything as Thanos readied himself to penetrate her. It wasn´t the first time he punished either she or Nebula this way, but with him being occupied with Loki he hadn´t had a change to punish any of them in a while. She wished he had told Loki about that, the look of dread on his face hurt her more than what she knew Thanos would do to her.
Thanos member penetrating her took her by surprise; she managed to keep quiet knowing very well that the punishment would become worst if she didn’t. She couldn´t help her eyes being flooded with tears as the raping continued.
Loki didn´t wanted to watch but he couldn´t take his eyes of Gamora’ s face, he just felt so miserable, he was hurting her because of him, he couldn´t take it anymore. He knew she had warned him not to show Thanos he cared but he just couldn´t hide his feelings any longer.
-I´m sorry Gamora, I´m sorry- he confessed though the tears that overwhelmed him.
Gamora looked up at him in horror- No!-a silent plea in her lips as Thanos stopped thrusting in her.
-If you are sorry for your sister, maybe I should punish you instead of her –Thanos grinned as he pull himself out of Gamora then told her –My dear child Loki seems eager to accept your punishment, it seems we are beginning to get into your brother´s thick skull-
Loki and Gamora looked at each other panic in their eyes he knew she couldn´t let Thanos knew she cared as she answered –If it pleases my father, I think I´ll accept his offer-
Loki knew he had brought it upon himself by not keeping quiet, but his heart had betrayed him and now he was going to pay for it. He cringed as he felt Thanos behind him –Maybe I should´ve done this long ago, it certainly teaches your sisters into obedience- he stated as he undid Loki´s trousers –No, please, no!-Loki pleaded
-Please, no what?-Thanos pulled his hair hard causing Loki to cry
-Please no …-Loki started crying he couldn´t bring himself into saying it, he couldn´t abandon hope.
-Wrong answer son, I´m going to enjoy punishing you- he laughed as he let go Loki´s hair.
Loki was unprepared for the pain of Thanos member ripping through his anus, his screams were exciting Thanos who would trusts into him with even more strength, Loki could feel something warm dripping through his legs, it was blood, his blood. He started feeling lightheaded, he knew he would lose consciousness soon though he doubted that would stop Thanos of having his way with him. The last thing he remembered before blacking out was Gamora silently shedding a tear.
When he woke up he was in his chambers, Gamora curled up by his side, he tried to move but hwe was in too much pain, his efforts awakened Gamora.
-Don´t move Loki, he really hurt you badly this time-
-I´m sorry-he started crying- I´m sorry-
He looked so miserable Gamora couldn´t help to hug him – It´s ok, he punishes Nebula and me like that all the time, I should´ve warned you.-
-But this time he did it because of me- Loki whined
-Brother, please don´t cry about that- she knew he had plenty other reasons to cry about.
-Please Gamora, kill me- he suddenly begged
She sighed – It would do you no good if I did-
Loki looked up at her – Why not?-
-I never told you why Nebula is partly cyborg; he punished her for taking her own life-
Loki´s eyes widened in terror, not even I death he could escape Thanos?
Gamora added –When she reached her breaking point she asked me just as you just did to end her life, I refused I was scared of Thanos reaction and I also didn´t wanted to be left alone with him. She didn´t took no for an answer and managed to kill herself. Thanos was enraged, how she dare think she could escape him; he used one of the infinity gems to resurrect her and then transformed her into the being you know. She used to be so beautiful, she was kind also but afterwards, she just …-she paused as the memories overwhelmed her.
-Sister, I can´t take it anymore. I would gladly follow his every command, but I just can´t bring myself to call him father.-
She looked directly into his eyes –I know, you couldn´t even say so to save yourself from his punishment.-
Loki started crying again the fact that Thanos had raped him filled him with shame, he was week, no wonder Odin never saw him fit for Asgard’s throne.

It took Gamora a week to get Loki well enough to stand; neither of them were too enthusiastic at the fact that Thanos wanted him to be brought to his presence as soon as he could walk.
His hands and feet were shackled as he was led into Thanos throne room, his clothing had been replaced with a pair of black trousers and a loose long sleeve white shirt, no footwear had been provided.
-Well, well Loki. Finally we meet.-Thanos addressed him as Loki was forced by the guards to kneel.
-Yes, your majesty-Loki answered as he bowed his head- I would like to thank you for rescuing from the void, and humbly request that you return me to my parents in Asgard. I´m sure they will pay any reward you choose to claim- he knew it was a long shoot but he needed to try, if only Thanos craved for any of Asgard´ s treasures he might be able to escape this nightmare, he didn´t care what Odin would do to punish him, he just wanted to go home.
Thanos evil laugh made him look up as he abandoned his last hope –All I want from Asgard is already here in this room- he replied – Besides I´m pretty sure your parents are glad to be rid of you, disgraced prince.-Loki winced at his words, he might be right he had fallen out of Odin´s grace.
-Oh, but don´t worry little prince, I´ve got a special place for you in my realm. You´ll only have to renounce to Asgard and your family and embrace me as your father. Sworn yourself to me, I require complete obedience and loyalty from you in exchange I will give your more power than you´ve ever dreamed off. I have chosen you to become my son, resistance is futile. I always get what I want.
Loki was shaking as he heard Thanos words, he knew what he meant, and he was going to torture him until he agreed to become his son. He was scared; he knew Thanos would know if he was lying and probably punish him further for it. He was trapped, even if he could convince himself from renouncing to Asgard and his family the thought of calling Thanos father was unbearable. He was an asgardian prince no matter his true origin, he´d rather die than showing weakness before him.
He tried to steady himself as he answered –I´m afraid I can´t do what you ask from me-
Thanos grinned he knew Loki would be hard to break, he had never expected him to accept his offer- Very well then. Let´s teach you how we deal with disobedience, son- He signal the guards to tie Loki to the post that stood near the left side of the throne.
Loki´s eyed widened as he could see dry blood on it, he knew making a scene would only encourage the guards to hurt him even more so he kept walking while every fiber in his body screamed against it.
The guards chained him to the metal ring nailed to the upper side of the post making him raise his arms as he faced the wall. He could hear the sound of a whip being casted into the air, suddenly the whip landed in his back causing him to scream in surprise and pain, he bit his lip trying hard not to scream again as the whip landed again and again, he manage to keep quiet until the twentieth stroke, the next one broke his silence as his screams filled the throne room while the whipping continued. He lost count after the thirtieth stroke and lost consciousness between the fortieth and the fiftieth one.
When he woke up he was again in his chambers, he could feel Gamora nursing his wounds. The change in his breathing alerted Gamora he had awakened.
-You should´ve taken his offer-she merely stated.
-You know I couldn´t-Loki answered as he winced while she cleaned her wounds.
-I know-she sighed-but you should have, it will only get worse. Then as she lowered herself near the edge of the bed in order to see Loki´s eyes she asked –Why don´t you give in? You won´t be able to neither outsmart him nor escape. No one will be able to rescue you, you are alone. Hope is now your greater enemy, it will only cause you more pain.-
He could see distraught in her yes –Why do you care Gamora? It´s useless, I can´t I just can´t- Tears were flooding his eyes despair hurt as much as hope and his heart was full of both.
-Because I once were like you. Thanos is punishing both of us. He wants to remind me there´s no escaping him; why else do you thinks he orders me to tend to you? He wants me to know he can still break me further by taking away anyone I could care about. He did it before with Nebula and now he´s using you to get to me.-
-I´m sorry-Loki suddenly spat as he buried his head in the bed – I only bring pain to the people that care for me, you shouldn´t get attached to me Gamora. I´m not worth it-
Gamora heart broke as Loki uttered the words and started crying too ashamed to look at her.
-Loki, don´t say that- she caressed his hair uncertain of what to say to him. As his sobs quieted she gently turned his head so they were facing each other.-Thanos will keep torturing you until you break, if and when you accept him is your choice alone. He´s not our father no matter what he claims, but if it gives you any comfort I would be proud to call you brother. We are far away from innocent, but not even we deserve this. He will use our sentiments for each other to hurt us; we can’t let him see we care. Loki please, remember that. Don´t let him see you care, he´ll only use it against you-
Loki couldn´t figure Gamora out, she was just a humongous puzzle but she was right he was beginning to feel attached to her, she was his only source of solace, and he could understand why tending to him made her feel responsible for him. Thor had also felt the same for him once. How much he missed his brother now.
-I´ll remember Ga …, sister-Loki answered.
Gamora smiled –Never call me like that in front of Thanos unless you had made your mind-
-I won’t-Loki smiled sadly back at her.

-Father, why did you pull him out of the void?-Nebula asked Thanos- He really doesn´t look like much, I hardly think he will ever make a worthy son someday-contempt filled her voice as she angrily glared at the unconscious figure that lied in the chambers bed.
-Patience daughter – Thanos replied – He has been falling through the void for over a month and a half, the fact that he is still alive makes him an interesting acquisition to our family.-
-I heard he’s one of the strongest mages of Asgard- Gamora added – but he looks too young father, you think he´s strong enough to be at your side?- though her voice mirrored her sisters emotions her eyes pitied him; she knew what awaited him, he would´ve been better dead.
-We´ll just have to wait and see- Thanos replied –Though he´ll have to be broken first, you both know I demand complete obedience and loyalty from my daughters I will demand the same from a son.-
Shivers went through both Gamora and Nebula spines as he utter the words, memories of Thanos breaking them flooded their minds.
-Yes father- they answered at unison as they bowed their heads in obedience.
-As soon as he´s able to walk you will bring him to me. Gamora I leave your new brother under your care – he told her as he left the chambers already grinning with the anticipation of the tortures he would submit Loki to.
-Yes, father- Gamora replied as he watched him leave, then he turned her eyes to Loki, he was emaciated, his eyes sunken, the signs of famish all over him. She sighed, she would have to get him healthy as soon as possible, Thanos wasn´t patient at all.
-I guess you got the worst part of the deal sister-Nebula said to Gamora pity on her voice.
Gamora turned to see her and replied with a smile –You and I both know sister that it´s Loki who´s getting the worst part, have you forgotten father´s breakings?-
-No, I haven´t- Nebula said as she looked away feeling uncomfortable with her sisters comment as she unconsciously nursed her arms. -I´ll leave you to your duties then.-she added as she left the chamber.
Gamora knew why Thanos had entrusted Loki to her care; he wanted to bid them both in obedience to him as he once did with Nebula. No matter how much she hated him, she always had to reconsider her stand due to her sister wellbeing and now he was going to do it again. It was impossible not to care for them as she was forced to heal their wounds only to send them back to him so he could torture them some more.
She looked at Loki as she caressed his hair, she felt so much pity for him, Thanos was going to torture him mercilessly until he bowed only to him as she had done with Nebula ans herself. She wished for him to broke fast and spare himself some suffering, but she knew that even under such pain spirits weren´t easy to break.
-Mother?-Loki mumbled as he regained consciousness under Gamora´ s soft touch.
-No, I´m afraid you aren’t in Asgard anymore-she repplied, there was no point in sugar covering the truth of his current position.
Loki´s heart skip a bit as he heard her response, his instincts kicked in suddenly as he felt threatened by the unfamiliar surroundings and voice, he tried to get out of the bed he was lying in. He hadn´t taken under consideration neither the weak state of his body nor had noticed the shackle wrapped around his left ankle that chained him into the bed while also binding his magic.
As he felt into the floor with a hard clash he became aware of both. As he got over the initial surprise he asked the green skinned woman standing beside him- Where am i? Who are you? What do you want from me?-
-Well, I think we´d better get you off the floor before I answer to your questions, can you get up?-Gamora asked.
Loki tried in vain to get his legs to answer to him, he´d been too long in the void –No- he answered as he shook his head both in frustration and shame.
Gamora sighed-I´ll get you up then- she scooped him up and placed him back in the bed. “Shit, he´s too skinny, he must have lost most of his normal weight” she thought to herself. –Now, let me explain your current situation-
AS she told Loki where he was, who was her and what Thanos intentions towards him were Loki´s heart sank with fear as he became aware he had jumped into the fire, again he had miscalculated.

“I miscalculated; I should be dead but I´m still here. I´ve condemned myself to the void, to the non-existence. I should’ve plunged Gungir into my heart instead, at least that way the pain would be gone by now. I´m sorry. I was desperate. I miscalculated.”
Regrets turmoil in his mind as Loki kept falling, sometimes he wished he could find his way back to Asgard to his family and beg for their forgiveness, other times he wished Thor has killed him in combat.
There was no way to keep track of time or distance in the void, the silence, the darkness, Loki has no way of knowing how long has he been falling, he felt weary, his mind becoming numb as time passed by, memories of happier days haunted him as much as the events preceding his fall. Nightmares assaulted him even when he was awake, he had condemned himself to a far worst punishment Odin could´ve though for him. And he started to think he deserved it.
He cried for his mother until his voice failed him, he knew it was futile no one would be able to hear or see him, but that didn´t stop the ache in his heart.
-Heimdall, please. I´m here please, please see me.- he whispered as he shed his last tears. He was too weak, he hadn´t eaten or drank anything for what he guesses were at least three weeks. He started drifting in and out of consciousness as his strength abandoned him.
In one of those rare lucid moments he felt a presence reaching out for him, desperately he pulled all of what was left of his magic and cling to it, anywhere will be better than the void was his last thought before he lost consciousness.
Sadly he miscalculated again.